Anyone can have a relationship if they wanted one. The problem is, not everyone can maintain it.
You can say you want a partner, and eventually, you’ll find one. But how you plan on treating them versus how you actually treat them is a whole different story. Not everyone can stay committed and loyal. Some just want to be in a relationship for the sake of company, a companion and when they get bored of you, you get dropped and they move on with their life.
Point of this rant is… I’m not here to waste my time on someone who can’t balance the effort here. Seems like that is always going to be a problem. Or maybe I just always give too damn much all the time.
The next person is always going to be better than the last.. I’ve always followed this saying until..
"That’s not true. The next person may feel like he/she is better than the last, but what if you had the greatest person who you had the greatest connection with and had the most in common with.. except you are not his/hers; the feelings aren’t mutual. Then there’s nothing you can do about it if he/she doesn’t feel the same way.
You then may find someone else, but you might feel he/she isn’t better than your last. While the other person may find someone else who feels that that person is his/hers best, and hopefully to be his/hers last.”
You’ve been hiding it all for so long. They can’t see there’s a war going on Because what you think of me conflicts what you feel for me. Baby it’s hard, I know. I’ve been trying to stay on the low Just to let you figure it out on your own.
Keeping a relationship going is harder than it looks. There are on and offs, people coming in and out of our lives, the ghosts of exs, etc going on throughout the relationship. It takes a lot of work and effort to maintain what you have.
Then when you’re trying to fix things and start things up again.. aren’t you suppose to do whatever it takes to make it better? To make it work? If so, then why the hell am I feeling as if its either this or that? If you’re doing something that the other doesn’t like, shouldn’t that make you stop? Because you’re risking a fragile relationship here. But if you don’t care, then, what else is there to fight for?
To keep a long term relationship, there must be something unique to have between two people. Something that can keep the spark up, or change things up a bit. Explore, travel, whatever, just DO SOMETHING. One thing I learned is to never get comfortable, where two people stop doing things for one another, or even together. It sucks when it’s just one person wanting to do things and the other is just “meh” about it.
I had a long time to think about what I have and what there is left of it. What is my conclusion of all this? Nothing. I don’t have a freaking answer. I don’t know what to do or what to even say about some things. I thought I was happy because things were going good, where it was suppose to be. And now? Now it’s just you do you and I’ll do me kind of feeling.