#i'm all over the place
Is it true you meet new people for a reason? Are those quotes that we see all the time about how people come into our lives are either a lesson or a blessing true? Because I’m having trouble understanding this concept of how things should work.
I am truly blessed with the people I have surrounded myself with now. Without them, I wouldn’t know who to turn to. I wouldn’t know who to complain or cry to. As much as they hate it when I do the things I do, they still stand by my side.
“Just do you and eventually, everything will fall into place.”
We all wish it was that easy - that every problem we run into, we’ll find the answers to our questions right around the corner that’ll help us get through life. As if our path was painted with a rainbows and butterflies, making all the right choices, and just live freely. I think if we didn’t have feelings, thoughts, a mind of our own, things would have been so much easier.
It’s these uncontrollable feelings we have. We don’t know how to stop it. We don’t know how to force it. All we know is that when we do feel something, it is inevitable to control how we want to express it.
It’s these uncontrollable thoughts we have. We try to force ourselves to not think about the things that makes us sad, but we do it anyway. We try to keep the good memories within ourselves to remind us about the moments we should cherish, yet we carry the negatives along and soon, it outweighs the positive.
We can be happy, but sometimes we just choose to make ourselves upset - and we don’t even know why.
Break up season
It’s weird that during spring time, a lot of people break up. And around fall, a lot of people get together. Well recently, I’m all ears when it comes to listening to people’s problems and offering advices to them about relationships and how to fix them.. in this case it’s after a break up.
I’ve learned that it doesn’t matter how many years spent, or how many ups and downs a couple have been through.. it all comes down to “where is this relationship going?” and the effort and time two people put in to make it work, to make it balanced.
Honestly, I don’t know what he has done for me to make me feel loved or shown me much really. The amount of effort and time are imbalanced. I can’t always be the only one who want to spend time together whenever we get the chance to. I mean it already sucks enough that our schedule is opposite. This shouldn’t be a one way street.
It makes me wonder, what am I doing here? Where is this relationship going? Of course I want to get married, but not now. We’re both not financially stabled. But I would like to know if it is really going somewhere. And if so, show me. Give me some actions to work with here. Because if there really isn’t anything much going on here, then I would rather not waste another 4 1/2 years with someone who doesn’t give a damn.
"Transformation sucks. They can sneak up on you. Things aren’t what they used to be. Your whole world is transformed. You realized, the ground beneath you is shifted. Things are uncertain and there’s no turning back. The world around you is different now - unrecognizable, and there’s nothing you can do about it. You’re stuck. Your future staring you in the face and you’re not sure you like what you see. Like I said, I’m not big into change."
"I believe in you. You know the door to my very soul. You’re the light in my deepest darkest hour. You’re my savior when I fall. And you may not think I care for you, when you know down inside that I really do. And it’s me you need to show how deep is your love."
How deep is your love | Bee Gee